Wide Eyes and Expanding Minds

With all that's going on It's hard to keep focus on what's real and what's fake. Social media, society & Satan has jacked up majority of the human population & ppl are brain dead! SMH Anything for views & likes these days. Even at the expense of 1s child(ren)  I wanna be around the ppl who still touch grass so to speak. The 1s who common sense is still in tact. The 1s who are actually doing the work in healing & evolving into the highest form of themselves. I feel like I be pulling teeth just to have a normal conversation. So many souls are trapped into the devil's plan for their life its ridiculous that they can't see it. I check my own self from time to time to make sure I'm not slipping 💯  Folks claim to love GOD but everyday there's half naked women on the screen or incel males bashing women every chance they get! There's NO love being poured out, just take take take & it's annoying. I pray for the days when p...

 My biggest lessons came in my season of KARMA. That period was intense & crucial to one's development! Most people are isolated, quiet & missing in action during this season of transformation. I chose to be open about my experience so I can help other people like me.  For me this was my greatest experience after giving birth to my daughter. It went on for months! It takes courage, willingness and a open heart to come out on the other side victorious! You're going to have to do the WORK to become better.   I reached out to certain individuals & gave apologies when necessary. Cut off ALL leeches & cut out behaviors that attracted them. GET REAL WITH YOURSELF ‼️ GOD will reveal what needs to be changed in order for one to become a better spirit. Question is ARE YOU TRULY READY TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE? 

Now with autumn 🍂 approaching this season of life is time to plant seeds & harvest the ones planted from last year. This season is of quietness & pruning! It's time to put into action the lessons learned throughout this year thus far. 💯  It's a season to LOVE the 1s closest to you as well as yourself. Continue to do good & be good. As the students return to school this is a perfect time to reorganize, rearrange & redirect things. Eliminate bad habits, behaviors & energies from demons around you! Cleanse your spirit. I'm taking my time with these goals I set for myself earlier this year and knocking off the small tasks in between. Finishing what I started so by the ending of this year I'll be 1 step closer to fulfilling GOD'S plan for my life. There's nothing else worth doing in this lifetime but becoming the KING or QUEEN GOD created you to be. 

On my spiritual journey I have been more into myself & it feels great! I started reading more, watching more videos with Transformation church & lead pastor Mike Tood. Honestly taking my path to GOD seriously. I recently took a break from smoking Mary, I been stopped nicotine years prior which I'm thankful. It's already been months to a year since I drank any liquor. I never was a big drinker anyways so that was easy to give up. Now my separation with an ex lover of 9 years there's NO sex just to add to that. So I'm SOBER! Clarity hit me like a ton of bricks since then but I'm OK with it now. I was scared of embracing this energy due to being scared of the unknown. Now that I'm living it I find I was scared for NOTHING. I was scared of truly having peace cause i been in survival mode majority of my life. Im so use to taking care of everyone else besides myself. Now i get to focus ONLY on ME. I don't have friends needing my advice knowing they weren...

This month is ALL about wealth! Recently stopped smoking again due to health reasons.  So been sober for about a week now & things has dramatically improved. Slowly getting my lungs 🫁 back into shape & breathing better. Emotionally & mentally it's taking a toll on me though! Can't sleep through the night, I wake up with anxiety & suicidal thoughts. Intrusive thoughts pop up daily but I'm grateful to GOD for my faith. I known I'm not gonna harm myself willingly physically but it doesn't slow down my brain. I've cut off ALL leeches & useless connections simultaneously reconnecting with those I've lost touch with that has my best interests at heart. A few family members & 2 friends I haven't seen in a while. It feels good to be around REAL 1s this time around. I'm letting go of my ideas of love & what I thought relationships would look like for me. Right now I just wanna focus on myself & get finished the projects I star...

So lately I've been feeling depressed 😔 due to being burnt out by daily life. Motherhood, career choices, trying to stay spiritually disciplined.  All has me stressed out & going back to old ways to find release. When in reality every time I backslide I undo the progress I've made thus far in my healing journey. That's NOT how I want life to be for me & this recent manic episode just shunned light to my ongoing issue. Now that I've acknowledged & made myself aware of the problem I can accept the next steps in fixing myself for the better. My anger for 1 is a HUGE part of my downward spirals. If things don't go my way I get upset easily! I know LIFE isn't on our terms at all but 1 can't help but to think about it constantly 😕 I've learned the more I read my Bible & study sometimes life is simplified for you. Most of the time if not all the time I don't want to submit or surrender what I have to the unknown of what GOD has to be hones...