NEW START 2023

So this chapter of my life is letting go & moving on‼️ I've bent over backwards these past few years for ppl who couldn't do the same for me. I was over the top generous with my kindness & now paying the price for it all. I'm not bitter towards anyone who done me wrong cause they showed me who they truly are.
 I now have the chance to do better & become a person who sets boundaries & stick with it. Actually I've NEVER understood why ppl had to set boundaries for those who knew them cause if you cross me ill simply cut you off‼️ I wouldn't want you back in my space afterwards it'll be awkward all the time & I just rather not deal with that kind of energy. I'm by myself MORE than I've ever pictured in my life. A heavy sorrow fills my heart these days. I long for a life filled with mutual love & respect 🙏🏿 I want to be around good ppl who don't have hidden intentions or ill will towards me. I show LOVE like no other & to not receive it back is annoying! Ppl come to me for all types of help & advice & I don't go to anyone but GOD who's the ultimate helper. 
I don't trust anyone & shouldn't. I'm always on guard about everything & suspicious of everyone. It's really tough living life like this but I don't know NO other way to be. For the safety of my child I don't mix well with others. I don't go out anymore cause I don't have a solid babysitter like I was for folks back in the day. Majority of my family don't like me so I can't leave her with just anyone. Plus everybody old af & don't have energy to chase a toddler!
 Nobody is doing the work to HEAL from my perspective so there's no change in my family dynamics. 💯 It's just sad & frustrating at the moment. I pray daily for peace of mind cause the enemy constantly let me know his goons are out to attack me at any given second. I can go on bout my present state but the positivity in it all is I have the ability to change myself & move on outta LOVE not HATE. I'm working on building a life for the family I created. Just me & my daughter! 

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